December 20th was the seventh anniversary of my mom’s passing. She was only 44 at the time. I had no idea how I was going to face life without my mom, because she was my best friend, mom and everything all rolled into one amazing woman. Life has gone on, but it will never be the same. I wrote a poem about her on the 20th, but was hesitant to share it here. It’s “off topic”, and not my best work. I decided to go ahead. Maybe it will touch someone else struggling with facing life and/or the holidays without a loved one they feel should be here to celebrate with them…
If you had asked when I was young
How long I thought my mom would live,
I’d have told you she’d outlive us all
And still have time to give.
If you had told me she’d be gone
When she was only 44,
I’d have called you crazy
And not listened anymore.
If I had known that she’d be gone
Before her time should be,
I’d have done all I could do
To keep her here with me
If I were given the chance
To see her once again,
I’d tell her how much I love her,.
Thank her for all she’d been.
She lived more in her short life
Than many who are old and gray
She was the best mom she could be,
And I miss her every day.
When she knew the end was nearing,
She had little left undone.
She just wished she’d see me married,
Get to hold the children of her daughter and son.
When I look at her grandbabies,
I see her sparkle and her smile,
I feel her love and laughter,
See her dancing silly and wild.
I know her love is with us,
And in our hearts, she’ll never die,
But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss her
Or in the darkness cry.
If I could give my mom a present
I’d fly all of us up to Heaven,
And spend a day with her in
The place she’s been for seven.
In Loving Memory of My Mom, Dorinda